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Poker Forum => General Discussion => Member Blogs => Topic started by: Starshine on October 21, 2012, 18:46:32 PM
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Well here I am, I wasn"t really sure bout a blog, but always when the blogthingi tourney on stars (wbcoop) comes up i think oh i should get me a blog. So I was thinking again to get me one in time, but then was unsure as it won"t be much bout Poker, but Phil said, "don"t worry look at my blog"
So what will my blog be about? Well a lot of things actually
Poker = No moaning bout bad beats, as I hate moaning. I might brag a bit though when I make others cry in their beer, like I did by example in the online knockout cup ;)
Life, yes it will be a lot about life, sad things, funny things
Goals I have, and I do have a lot goals for next year, like moving to England, moving within the Uk (which includes looking for a nice place, setting up the garden the way I want and so on), or taking part in the Cork Street Open Exhibiton Competition
Things I really, really like or am nearly obsessed with (dont worry there will never be a post about ironing even though i am obsessed with ironing ;) ) so by example Art (the one i do myself and perhaps artists i like), cooking, baking, music, herbals (well they go probably with gardening), hobbycraft stuff and of course books, i really love reading and have nearly a little library at home
and most likely a few or a lot things i have not mentioned so far
To explain the title of this blog :) the following post will be a document I have :)
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Ralph Little plays for your National Football team....
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Ralph Little plays for your National Football team....
Yes he played in the match against Chagos Islands
what I really would like if we would not only have a National Football Team, but a national poker team as well ;)
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Ralph Little also played in the 1-1 draw with Alderney.. I"m not sure if he scored in the penalty shoot out but Sealand won and lifted the Bavaria Cup as victors...
Yes.. a poker team would be a novelty...
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Starshine... Did you pay £200 for that...?
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Starshine... Did you pay £200 for that...?
no lol not at all
well first I payed nothing as it was a birthday present from my Andy few years ago,
and it was 30 pounds, the title for 200 is a different title higher then a baroness is for count or countess, but I am pleased with being a baroness so I not need to be a countess. I might have a go and get me the id card though, as I think this is very funny and it costs just 25 pounds which lol is even less then i have to pay here for my id card all however many years when it needs to get reviewed
Would they found a national poker team and well take me for it ;-) I would even buy some "land" :D
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so this week won"t be much about poker, as I simply not much time to play. I was quite happy so that yesterday I at least reached the points just so and with nearly no chips anymore in the online league hooray, not that it was much helpfull for my team :"(
But this week it will be a lot working (and yes i do play poker while working ;) but mainly coolers, and there is really nothing much to say bout coolers except there nice, easy to go, and only bout sitting tight :D)
and besides working I have to focus on a sad point in my life, which is not easy, but has to be done. My dear neighbour who was my neighbour for 25 years died after suffering with her illness and lot of pain on September 23rd. It was still a shock even though we have the last few month known she been ill, even though i was sitting on her last day 7 hours with her, but this is my mind having hope till the last moment. So I am going through a lot of things with my mind currently. The thing is that even though we been neighbours so long and had really good contact we never have been in each others flat. One day we even put chairs in our doors and sat there and had a gossip but never went to visit us in flat. This changed when she finally sort off stopped hiding she is ill. Not that she was very successful with hiding the last one and a half years as I did notice, but she never spoke about. In her last few weeks she still not spoke, but finally let me help. So this been the time I fist time was in her flat, not looked much around though as I was focused on her. And now I am there daily. She not has family in Munich, her niece and sister come from a different part in bavaria so it is for granted that I help them with things.
Which gives me in times a complete new impression of my neighbour. Not in a bad way so. i have known she is helpful, always there for others, patient and so on. But now is the other things, like music i would not have expected or books and so on. It is like I go a deeper level in getting to know her, and it feels bit odd as there is no quid pro quo for it.
So I actually even started talking with her when I am in her flat,
or well even in my flat, as oh dear she has so many things. So her family sort of urged me to take a lot, which made me feel bit bad as well.
so besides work i am busy with sorting things out in my place, finding place for her stuff after i fall a couple of times bout the china (not damaged god bless). I managed successfully not doing much the last two weeks, always found something else to do, but now it can"t be delayed anymore. Her flat needs to get done as the landlord wants it empty. And my flat needs urgently to look at least a bit less then a warzone.
So I actually wanted to start 3 hours ago, but instead i was sitting here making a plan in my mind, thinking around and saying to myself oh one more cigarette then i shall start.
But now right after this post I finally will start doing the sort outs, as in 6 hours I have to work, and her family come tomorrow and i promised till then to have few things out her flat. And what as well is important I get a good friend coming tomorrow (Wolfgang, or how I call him the wolferl) who is sort of my private craftsman lol. Not for free though but a good friendship prize. And I not want him to get a shock by my warzone. Due to moving I need to do things in my flat, which I will keep. Two reasons, first I have one room in my flat rented to my oldest and best friend called Gandalf or flattie (for flatmate), and second I pay the cheapest rent in whole munich so i would be silly to give it up. As I will come home for visits. But I feel bad to move without doing things before. So my Wolferl is coming tomorrow so that we can make a plan of what needs to be done (well i do know this but need to tell him), how much it will cost and when we or better him can do it.
So I shall be a busy bee now, and well later while i am working play a few coolers ;)
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Fantastic you"ve started a blog Gina.. look forward to updates :-*
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Fantastic you"ve started a blog Gina.. look forward to updates :-*
Agreed, keep it going Gina!
By the way, my online cup silver medal arrived today and loving it! hopefully first of many, will put picture on the facebook page ;)
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Poker today is quite funny,
I have a cold, since few weeks actually, but it was okish so far and on an okish level, finally this week i thought i got rid of it, till today it came fulley back, so i have a sore throat, my nose is stuffed, i am bit feverish and my ears are aching
So after working till 17, I laid down and when i woke up, i thought ok, i play a bit, so i did the loyality freeroll, my weekly ladies game, and the cash back on boss
the ladies game was nice, only at the moment we are not many playing it, 3 entrys and hooray i won it
I won a seat for the 25K on Sunday in the loyalty freeroll
and i am surprisingly still in the cash back, had 200 places, i was short when we been 200 left and currently i am 4th out of 28 left which is something I not even understand, as actually i play like a donk, as i am fine with the result and at the moment feel quite bad, so i really, really want to go to bed, but every time i just go all in I double, so I am curious where this donking will lead me to in the end
finished the tourney on 8th, which is well ok, as i did not donk much as soon we reached final table, but i think i can be pleased
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is this the old platform in the North sea that"s declared itself a country? Just ;D ;D ;D
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is this the old platform in the North sea that"s declared itself a country? Just ;D ;D ;D
Yes, since September 1967.
It is the reason why I so much like my title and am proud of it. As it fits both souls in me ;) I do like royal stuff and I am having an anarchy soul as well, so the history of Sealand covers both perfectly. :)
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Yes.. a poker team would be a novelty...
Well, as I am obviously in the mood today to make others smile, you know who you are ;) I wrote an email to the Fifa just right now, asking or basically nearly begging them, to accept Sealand as an own country for the World Cup. Not that it really matters to me if they take part there or not, but what matters to me is well ofc Poker. And should the Fifa accept Sealand as a nation, perhaps once there might be a chance that Sealand can become a pokernation as well. So that I perhaps only if they would take me ofc might be one day able to play a poker nation team event ;)
Would be fun though to see Sealand appearing in World or Europe cup in soccer, why not. Wales is there, Scotland, England so Sealand is a part of Britain just like them :D
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Here is the prove, so you see that really nothing is to silly for me, and that i am willing to do a lot to make others smile :D
Dear Fifa,
In every world cup qualification group i see states i did not know before they exist. But still there are some missing.
I wonder why the Fifa does accept some micro nations but not accept others.
By example there is the Principality of Sealand a micronation, and I really, really would like very much would they be accepted and be part of the next World Cup and get the change to qualify.
As well with this the Fifa could open doors for a lot of people. Sealand has a lot of supporters and "Sealanders" of all type of sports. But most sport associations refuse to accept sealand as an own country even though the sportlers would like so much to represent Sealand. Would the fifa start with it and accept sealand, the others i am sure would follow.
So please I dare you, show a heart and accept them.
Thank you very much in advance
kind regards
Gina Weiss
Baroness of Sealand
p.s. I apologise for my english
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Does Ralph Little play poker? Would APAT dare offer a place at the WCOAP ;)
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Does Ralph Little play poker? Would APAT dare offer a place at the WCOAP ;)
[color=purple]I do not know if he does, but even though would not help him, he could just play for himself, but not for Sealand :"( as Sealand is not one of the Nations in WCOAP. If it would be, I would hope they choose me for their team as well[/color]
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Does Ralph Little play poker? Would APAT dare offer a place at the WCOAP ;)
I do not know if he does, but even though would not help him, he could just play for himself, but not for Sealand :"( as Sealand is not one of the Nations in WCOAP. If it would be, I would hope they choose me for their team as well
You"d most certainly be Captain Gina 8)
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You"d most certainly be Captain Gina 8)
I would hope that one of the Princes plays poker and be the catpain :)
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On the BBC News site today...
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-20167792
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Well I haven"t posted a while, and there aren"t many news bout poker though
I am unfortunately not doing well in the team cup :"( but it is not over yet ;)
At the moment I am just busy with the pre xmas time and sorting some probs out,
so I hope ones this is all done, i will be back to post more and to play more
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Belated, but still from heart I wish everyone a very merry Christmas and a nice new years eve
I am belated as my Granddad died on the 2nd Christmas Day (december 26th)
and to prevent me from getting ask the awful question if any of us had an idea this may happen again, no we had not. Other than that I am aware that we all will die some day. Just because someone is ill, does not mean you have the idea and are prepared for when and that it will happen. So yes in a way I did know my Granddad will die sooner or later, does not mean that I really was prepared for it, and it really came out of sudden and was a shock.
My Granddad was ill, he had Alzheimer, and we been very close, so I am currently not in the best state ever. I wondered if he died on 2nd Christmas day as he liked christmas so much. this thought would comfort me. On the other hand I think he had really a bad timing. As to me condolences by example are always a thing to comfort the family and show respect to whom passed. But to die on Christmas showed me that you pretty much alone. Even close friends seem to be to busy to spare 1 or 2 mins for a condolence. Which is in a way understandable with all that cooking and whatever other things happen on Christmas. So the person who passes does not get at all the atention one deserves after a long life. Which I find really sad. So I wish my Granddad had died at another time.
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Really sorry to hear about this Gina, my thoughts are with you at this sad time.
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Very sad news Gina, something that nobody can ever prepare for and probably made worse at this time of year. I"m sure your Grandad will now look down on you with a smile and not wish you any sorrow. My thoughts are with you, I wish you and your family some comfort and a brighter 2013 xXx
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Terrible news Gina, hope you find strength and my thoughts are with you x
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Thank you all ever so much for your condonlences xxx
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Does good support matter?
I wonder this sometimes, as it does to me really a big deal. But how important is a good support service for a pokerroom. Am I perhaps to fussy about?
Sometimes it really does upset me. Bossnetwork by example is in generell a rather bad support. There live support depends on whom you get. You might get lucky and you get someone who forwards your issue. Most times though you get someone who triest to be smart and uses google translation to reply to you in your mother language with the result that i really not have a clue what the person wants to say to me. Even if I go ahead talking in English (and my english is still better than the google translators german) they keep replying in whatever google thinks is german. Or they tell you sorry we are just for cashier problems, which not even can be as this is webdollar.
I still play on bossnetwork, as i like it, but the support there upsets me a big deal in times.
Another really good example is: I played in a tourney with 100player, well this 25K challenge semifinal, first of all it was said only 100 play semifinal, suddenly it been 101. Lucky me my starting table was 4 sitouters, and 3 players talking all time in a different language, and well some bits i could understand they been talking bout cards. It really not bothers me if this happens in a tourney with over 1000 players and a lot places. But 100 players, 20 qualify for the big tourney, this makes a big difference and is annoying. So well I contacted live support, bla bla bla. I wrote an email and this is the funniest answer i really ever got from support: Thank you for your understanding and keep in mind, if a player needs to chat in a different language in order to get an advantage, that means he is a weak player. So use that against him :)
Ermmm, well first of all, no I not have any understanding, so no need that someone thanks me for this. But is it this way, the terms and conditions of boss say only english. If someone does not it is still ok? And it doesn"t matter if they are cheating or not, cause actually it shows I am a bad player when I am to stupid to take advantage out of their weakness?
Oh and of course when I looked this morning, it wasn"t really a big surprise to me that 2 of them got a seat to the big tourney. I finished in the 20th so did not get, but at least was in long enough to enjoy their non english chat all way long.
So don"t get me wrong, I normally do not care if people chat non english or swear or whatever. When it comes close to the bubble or in a tourney like yesterday where it does matter I do care. I am pretty well aware that things can"t be changed for this special situation. But should not the pokerroom or network care?
And should not support really matter. After all we are the customers, without customers no job or am I seeing this wrong?
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I agree with you. I had the same thing on Wednesday night. There was tons of chat going on in what looked like some East European language. I saw the word "mint" at one point, which I assumed to be a reference to me. I tried to contact Live Support to get it stopped, but there was just a message saying that they were all busy and to try again in 10 minutes. I tried several times, with the same outcome each time. There was an option to send them an email, which I did. I am still waiting for answer to that. I wouldn"t usually bother, but there was a substantial prize for this game (a WSOP package) and there was nothing to stop what was going on. Although I played on APAT's room, I assume it was a general BOSS network tournament. It would seem that they are not bothered about this.
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I have noticed that I wasn"t logged in for ages.
I am just not incredibly focused on Poker atm. I missed the world online championsship, but as it was on Will hill and not on the apat pokerroom, i really could not bother to open another account. And i not have a WH account.
Occassionally I play, but there are to many things happening which upset me (not on the table) but it keeps my thoughts away from poker and damages a bit my concentration.
Soon I will go the 4th funeral within 9 month, and I have to admitt that this is now pretty tough.
I am usually even though incredibly sad when someone close to me dies, but still to the outside taking it pretty tough. I get upset bout those nice meant sentences like remember tears show love. Cause I wonder if this people mean I did not love the person who died just because I not cry in public. Every loss hits me incredibly but I am not really very good in this very extroverted moaning.
What helped me I notice is the way some people who call them friends I would guess do condolences. I find them even a bit offending, but perhaps I am just old fashioned. And can"t get used to the new rather snappy style of condolences at all. Honestly I would prefer no condolence more than a snappy one. But well if you have close friends and they do either snappy or just ignore it and do none, than both is upsetting and hurtful.
Yesterday a good friend of mine died unexptected. No that it really matters actually if someone dies unexpected or not. But actually I am still pretty upset that I was asked when my granddad died was this expected. I mean after a while you can ask people this. From my view as a first sentence of condolence i find this incredibly awful and not really kind. This is why i now always add unexpected or not to prevent me from this awful question.
I am ok I would say, incredibly sad, but ok. It was an awful shock though, and this friend, Erich is his name will leave a really big empty space in everyones life. Yesterday I was crying a lot, well at home ofc. But is ok now. I still took me the rest of the week off from work. As I did really with the last 3 just had maximum a day off plus a day for funeral, and i just need a bit time for myself.
Which does not mean i am starring at the wall with a sad face. I just wander around in my thoughts. Remembering the good moments and such.
Well and getting upset bout reactions ;-) but i think that is a good thing, keeps me less sad.
The death of my granddad already damaged some friendships, so this can"t be damaged worse now.
I notice lately that I get more and more upset about assumptions, even though yes even I make assumptions sometimes not even often, only seldom. Only when I do them, wow it seems like it is an armageddon. The last time I did was really the day after my granddad died, and i got so told off for this, how i could dare and such. And it wasn"t even what i would call really an assumption. I just assumed things which are normal, to learn they might be normal but aren"t. But I shall not complain as now I can feel myself how it is when others treat you based on assumptions or how they act or react and not thinking that I might do different. So I noticed that some people keep the contact less since my granddad died, and when I ask them I get told, I am sorry but I am not feeling well myself and am sad for what reason ever and I not have the strength for your sadness?????????????????????????????????
I than sit there and think what on Earth. How can someone say this? or even think this? Yes I am sad so what, I lost 4 people in 9 month. But except really on the day this happens I not let it affect my life much. If someone calls me or writes me, yes I might tell the news or might say I am sad. But never ever would I do this repeatedly or even tell how much I miss someone there or there or whatever. Of course I miss them, and will never forget them. But I just have the view I would dishonour the person would I just sit and cry all time, instead of thinking the good moments. It is people"s life we have to honour and celebrate, and keep it in us, so they will never be forgotte.
I hate selfpity, and am not good in it anyway. Telling sad things can be done just as fact. Without a lot sadness in it. So I feel a bit abandoned actually, if people not contact me cause they not can handle my sadness, without even knowing if I have one.
This is really awful.
I know this post not made much sense at all, or actually no sense. But I have no diary, so I treat this blog like a diary.
Thanks anyway to all who did take the time reading it, I do hope that more funny and nice posts are coming this year. Honestly it can"t get much worse.
Please do not think I am completely mad, I am just a thoughtwanderer atm :-)
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Really...that formatting had me eyes bleeding.
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no worries Paulie, I change it to black just for you
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I lost my dad recently and it looks like I will lose my father-in-law soon. It never hit me very hard but seemed to affect my wife more. I can understand how you are feeling and I think I will understand more when my wifes father passes away. It will really hurt to see my wife so sad. We never forget and never really fully recover from a close loss but with time we do get over other peoples poor reactions to your loss. We seem to be in a faceless society now where people are more easy sending condolences via Facebook and Twitter rather than actually speaking to you face to face. If you are not able to offer strength personally when it is needed then don"t do it at all..
I am sorry to hear about what has happened recently and I really only logged onto this thread as I thought it was going to be about the upcoming charity football match with the Allstars v Sealand
http://www.fulhamfc.com/tickets/misc/fulham-all-stars-v-sealand-all-stars
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I lost my dad recently and it looks like I will lose my father-in-law soon. It never hit me very hard but seemed to affect my wife more. I can understand how you are feeling and I think I will understand more when my wifes father passes away. It will really hurt to see my wife so sad. We never forget and never really fully recover from a close loss but with time we do get over other peoples poor reactions to your loss. We seem to be in a faceless society now where people are more easy sending condolences via Facebook and Twitter rather than actually speaking to you face to face. If you are not able to offer strength personally when it is needed then don"t do it at all..
I am sorry to hear about what has happened recently and I really only logged onto this thread as I thought it was going to be about the upcoming charity football match with the Allstars v Sealand
http://www.fulhamfc.com/tickets/misc/fulham-all-stars-v-sealand-all-stars
I am sorry to hear about your loss :"( my thoughts are with you and your wife. I shall light a candle for your father in law :-(
Sorry for disappointing you with not going bout upcoming football matches ;-) but I have to admit I am not this much of a football fan. And if so more with german teams ;-)
With Sealand what I would really like if not only some football clubs accept them, but if APAT would as well except Sealand as a team (nation), because this would be really great fun, and I would honestly like it if there was Sealand at a apat team nations cup. Not even knowing if i would be in the team, but still would like it. BUT this will never happen and makes me feel a bit like Don Quichotte fighting windmills ;-)
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You have had a lot of heartache lately, but I wouldn"t be too hard on people who offer you condolences that you feel are not adequate. Most people do not really know what to say for the best in these situations, so they just do what they can. A well-known APAT member lost his father recently and I posted a message that I thought was totally inadequate compared with what I wanted to express, but I couldn"t think of something better. I would hope, though, that he didn"t think it was just shot off without any meaning, and I"m sure he didn"t. I would imagine that your friends want to communicate something to you but, like most people, are not skilled in this area.
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Thoughts are with you Gina, huge hugs xx
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As per my messages last night .... thinking of you and lots of hugs and love for you.
Memories are such sweet treasures and will remain with us always .... keep remembering the happy parts of their lives and the joy they gave to others, and blow your kisses to the sky for them xxx
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You have had a lot of heartache lately, but I wouldn"t be too hard on people who offer you condolences that you feel are not adequate. Most people do not really know what to say for the best in these situations, so they just do what they can. A well-known APAT member lost his father recently and I posted a message that I thought was totally inadequate compared with what I wanted to express, but I couldn"t think of something better. I would hope, though, that he didn"t think it was just shot off without any meaning, and I"m sure he didn"t. I would imagine that your friends want to communicate something to you but, like most people, are not skilled in this area.
Oh I do count this in, this is not what I meant, no one really is skilled in this area, so i not make a fuss bout the words really, but snappy is snappy and this was just new to me and quite shocking, bit awful actually when you are just grieving and have to defend yourself that you do. But it helps really, better getting upset than sad ;-)
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I hope that I say don"t have to say following sentence again for a very long time
Thank you all for your condolences :-*
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You have had a lot of heartache lately, but I wouldn"t be too hard on people who offer you condolences that you feel are not adequate. Most people do not really know what to say for the best in these situations, so they just do what they can. A well-known APAT member lost his father recently and I posted a message that I thought was totally inadequate compared with what I wanted to express, but I couldn"t think of something better. I would hope, though, that he didn"t think it was just shot off without any meaning, and I"m sure he didn"t. I would imagine that your friends want to communicate something to you but, like most people, are not skilled in this area.
Oh I do count this in, this is not what I meant, no one really is skilled in this area, so i not make a fuss bout the words really, but snappy is snappy and this was just new to me and quite shocking, bit awful actually when you are just grieving and have to defend yourself that you do. But it helps really, better getting upset than sad ;-)
I am currently going through this ( think i am who John is talking about) and i personally found every single message that someone has taken the time to send me utterly humbling.
For me, knowing that there are people out there who are thinking about me and my family is a massive comfort to me.
I am sending you all the thoughts and prayers i can. Its hard, and you sound like you are doing as much as you can.
Remember the love you felt. That is all that matters.
Huge love to you. Will be thinking of you over the coming days x
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You have had a lot of heartache lately, but I wouldn"t be too hard on people who offer you condolences that you feel are not adequate. Most people do not really know what to say for the best in these situations, so they just do what they can. A well-known APAT member lost his father recently and I posted a message that I thought was totally inadequate compared with what I wanted to express, but I couldn"t think of something better. I would hope, though, that he didn"t think it was just shot off without any meaning, and I"m sure he didn"t. I would imagine that your friends want to communicate something to you but, like most people, are not skilled in this area.
Oh I do count this in, this is not what I meant, no one really is skilled in this area, so i not make a fuss bout the words really, but snappy is snappy and this was just new to me and quite shocking, bit awful actually when you are just grieving and have to defend yourself that you do. But it helps really, better getting upset than sad ;-)
I am currently going through this ( think i am who John is talking about) and i personally found every single message that someone has taken the time to send me utterly humbling.
For me, knowing that there are people out there who are thinking about me and my family is a massive comfort to me.
I am sending you all the thoughts and prayers i can. Its hard, and you sound like you are doing as much as you can.
Remember the love you felt. That is all that matters.
Huge love to you. Will be thinking of you over the coming days x
Awwwwwwwwww thank you ever so much for your kind words when you yourself are in the same situation. I am ever so sorry to hear this, my thoughts will be with you and my prayers. I shall light a candle for you and your dad tomorrow when I go to church
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Yes all nice words I find incredible touching. I am easy to please actually, a normal sorry is already making me i don"t know feel less alone.
So please do all not think i am unthankful, the situation i talked about was no nice words, and was not a sorry. Was being told off sort of to be sad for my granddad as he was old and i should have expected this. And therefor with having expected it no reason to be sad as it is normal in a certain age.
Just to make this clear, otherwise I might seem like a selfish and unthankful brat
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You have had a lot of heartache lately, but I wouldn"t be too hard on people who offer you condolences that you feel are not adequate. Most people do not really know what to say for the best in these situations, so they just do what they can. A well-known APAT member lost his father recently and I posted a message that I thought was totally inadequate compared with what I wanted to express, but I couldn"t think of something better. I would hope, though, that he didn"t think it was just shot off without any meaning, and I"m sure he didn"t. I would imagine that your friends want to communicate something to you but, like most people, are not skilled in this area.
Oh I do count this in, this is not what I meant, no one really is skilled in this area, so i not make a fuss bout the words really, but snappy is snappy and this was just new to me and quite shocking, bit awful actually when you are just grieving and have to defend yourself that you do. But it helps really, better getting upset than sad ;-)
I am currently going through this ( think i am who John is talking about) and i personally found every single message that someone has taken the time to send me utterly humbling.
For me, knowing that there are people out there who are thinking about me and my family is a massive comfort to me.
I am sending you all the thoughts and prayers i can. Its hard, and you sound like you are doing as much as you can.
Remember the love you felt. That is all that matters.
Huge love to you. Will be thinking of you over the coming days x
Awwwwwwwwww thank you ever so much for your kind words when you yourself are in the same situation. I am ever so sorry to hear this, my thoughts will be with you and my prayers. I shall light a candle for you and your dad tomorrow when I go to church
xxx
Yes all nice words I find incredible touching. I am easy to please actually, a normal sorry is already making me i don"t know feel less alone.
So please do all not think i am unthankful, the situation i talked about was no nice words, and was not a sorry. Was being told off sort of to be sad for my granddad as he was old and i should have expected this. And therefor with having expected it no reason to be sad as it is normal in a certain age.
Just to make this clear, otherwise I might seem like a selfish and unthankful brat
Thankyou, i really appreciate that :)
You dont sound like a brat. You have been through a horrid time, and you have every right to be as upset as you need to be, no one can tell you any different :) x
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Thoughts about Poker for a change ;) I currently have some sleeping problems, probably due to all the happenings, so last nite I thought I play some poker, better than rolling around in bed all time from one side to the other. As I did not know how my mind is with poker at the moment, i did not really wanted to waste my money.
And due to this I finally found the what i think for me best way to use points on stars. I am gold player and i had 12041 points. Which of course I could have got me tickets for tourneys and hoped not to mess them. I as well could have gone in shop and cashed them into bonus. Which would have been 1 gold, 2 silver and 1 bronze which would have given me a bonus of 135 dollar. So this is not really great as well.
So i had a try with the fpp sit and goes as i do them occassionally. The satellites for the Sunday Storm. There is a turbo 210 points buy in, 20 players = 6 seats. And hypers 6players, 235 points buy in = 2 seats. Plus the 3rd gets 10 points. :D
I did a mix of both, normally i hate turbos and hypers even more. In the past I was better in the turbo than in the hyper, not so last nite. I played all points down, well kept me 100 for the 30K weekly silver tourney which needs 100 points buy in. So I have played 52 games (9 turbos, the rest hyper). I won 21 of them. Became 3rd 13 times lol and got 10 points each. So I made 231 tourney dollars. Which is better than the 135 dollars i would have got when cash out.
Most of it I sold for 99.5% and cashed out, some I kept in the account for playing.
So I think I will keep this way for using my points up as it seems the most profitable to me. Even though I was a bit or still am frustrated that I only won 21 out of 52 games. >:( But still it was a profit, so that"s ok.
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My Birthday is this Sunday and this year it is a bit an odd one, lot of thoughts going through my mind with it. First I feel bit odd with celebrating with all the losses I had in the last 11 month.
Than on the other hand I think I should celebrate at least with my mum and granny as it is most likely the last birthday I can celebrate with them, with moving or starting to move to England in September. I will be a bit like a traveller the first couple of month this is why it is more a starting to move. I go in September, be back in November for 3 weeks about as I promised my Granny to be with her a while as she has something done with her eyes. Than I go again and be back in February/March really long. And as I "move" twice, first just to Chadwell Heath, but we going to move to Westcliff (already had started to look for houses there) when we finally have the house, i will again be a few weeks in germany to prepare all my stuff for moving. But in all this planning being here in July is very unlikely. So it is a bit sad as well that it will very likely my last bday in Germany.
The fun thing about my Birthday is that really every year I get asked by family and friends if I have wishes for present. And every year I say no all fine, perhaps a book if at all. Now :D for the first time that I really, really, really very desperately have a certain wish - guess what? No one is asking :D Is a bit like Murphys law really. I, like most people, have dreams and one of them is attending some or lots ;) classes with London Jewellery School. As I found out they sell gift vouchers, I checked with them even if it is possible for a student to use multiple vouchers, as they said yes and even very encouraging emailed me that I by no means would be there oldest student ;) I thought, now this is great, I will just this year tell everyone who asks me about what i wish tell "Voucher please" as it makes it easiest and everyone can even go by his purse, give 1 pound, 5 pound whatever. But well of course Murphys law :D so no vouchers :-(
As well, normally I am not really celebrating it much, just a dinner with friends - this year where I am a bit in an odd mood and not even know if I shall celebrate it, it seems like a lot people suddenly want to spend my birthday with me, well now that I type this it makes sense ;) as they know that I move ;)
So this currently is my mood, not much time for poker atm, as I am a bit in a madhouse, I keep my munich flat, due to being cheap and my flatmate stays. But I decorate it to be all nice, and all proper before i go. (having a nice holiday flat than :D) so I am between working 60 hours and decorating, so when work is not to busy as I am having a pc job :-) i play bit poker besides work, but that"s bout it. Once all is done here, I will play a bit more, and I am looking forward, well should I still than know how to play :D
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Happy birthday for Sunday Gina... and may all your dreams come true especially with the Jewellery school. I"m sure Des could always "bling" up those WCOAP bracelets ;D
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:) Finally I made it :) and this is the reason why I wasn"t online much lately, I am in England
it was just the "small" move yet, as most my stuff is still at home. We going to move within England last spring, so I thought the best is to bring now just bits, and make the big moving with a proper car once we have the house in Westcliff. Now I am in Chadwell Heath.
As most of you all know each other in person and me due to being in Germany not have met any of you, and if you would like to meet a bit a chaotic person ;) please feel free to send me a pm.
The "moving" was ofc a tiny bit chaotic. As I keep my flat in Germany, due to several reasons, first it is real cheap rent, second my flatmate who is my best friend stays in germany, would have been nice though could I have brought all my friends with me. And I go home regulary so it is just nice to have my flat and not being a guest of my mum, granny, friends whatever. I do miss my friends really, and feel still a bit like an orphan here.
As I keep my flat I had somehow the idea to decorate it, so I was busy with first empty my room, which includes a couple of hundred books and so on. Than painting and all the stuff, put things back. But all looks nice now and I have a nice "holiday" flat in Munich.
I go back in November where I will bring some more stuff with me. So till we have the house, I will move with suitcases lol
Andy had picked me up, mainly that I have can bring a lot with me. We have been on the exact limit for luggage. Lufthansa allows 1 suitcase a 23kg a person, plus handbag plus handluggage max. 8kg. lol Well we had a suitcase with 20kg so full that it nearly exploded, one with 22.8 kg, one handluggage with 8.4, one with 8.2 and my handbag, the biggest I could find with 7 books in it lol
Books are really my thing, I love reading, i had bout 600 books, where I was busy the last year in sorting them out, and gave some away, to cousin and to a charity. So perhaps about 100 I gave away. It was really important to bring some books with me. Which most people could not understand. I got recommend a kindle quite often. But some of my books are really old, from my childhood still. Others are from studies, some are rarities and so on. And most of my books are not free on kindle. So it would not make much of a sense to me, to throw books i have away and pay for them again on kindle. The next thing is that in some are notes I put in, which are my study books, not that I use them much anymore but sometimes they helpful for work. My childhood books are memories. So no throwing away of books. Another suggestion was to just leave them in Germany and buy my books new in England. Which I find incredibly silly. I am not really Rockefeller. So with bout 500 books, where some of them are quite expensive it would be something I could not efford. Plus why should I want all my books double, not even I are this obsessed with books. And most my books are in German and there aren"t really many german book shops in England.
So no really no one can convince me in getting rid of them.
So I choosed a few ;) books to come with me now, both handluggage have been filled with books, one contained two tshirts though as well. There been books in the suitcases and in my handbag. And lol i could not bring all of those I decided for now with me. So when we packed I had to decide which to leave. This made me to forget other things lol As I was just about to get shoes and other stuff when I saw oops books need a sort out, so I did this and forgot bout the shoes.
So I arrived in England with one pair of shoes, the ones I was wearing. i as well have forgotten jimmy jammys and ermm knickers :-[ this problem is sorted though, I just bought. I still not have bought shoes yet, been in several shops not saw so far any I liked lol
I am quite happy that the online league has not started yet, as I not had time to play. I am not completely settled yet, a few thing still need to find their place. Well at least with only one pair of shoes I not have to worry to find a place for shoes lol
Tomorrow finally I have a day off, as I am already back to work, and decided to have a nice poker playing day tomorrow.
I shall post if I do nicely.
It is nice to be back on Apat, and I really, really hope that now finally I come to meet some of you